have been so close now so far away i don't know how to treat you living your life and playing your games and now afraid to meet you knowing you well and not knowing you loving you much and hate you as well have been so close now so far away and now we play a different game i can not believe that we're not friends anymore i can not believe that we pass by without any word but i don't have your picture on the wall anymore what a strange feeling to erase you from my dreams it just can't be true that i was with you - Set me free why dont cha babe Get out of my life why dont cha babe cause you dont really love me You just keep me hanginon Set me free why dont cha babe Get out of my life why dont cha babe You dont really need me But you keep me hanginon Why do you keep a comin around Playing with my heart Why dont cha get out of my life And let me make a brand new start Let me get over you The way youve gotten over me yeah You say although we broke up You still just wanna be friends But how can we still be friends When seeing you only breaks my heart again Get out, get out of my life And let me sleep at night cos you dont really love me You just keep me hanginon You say you still care for me But your heart and soul needs to be free And now that youve got your freedom You wanna still hold on to me You dont want me for yourself So let me find somebody else Why dont cha be a man about it and set me free Now you dont care a thing about me Youre just using me - hey, abusing me Get out, get out of my life And let me sleep at night cos you dont really love me You just keep me hanginon You dont really need me You just keep me hangin on - like a chain memories of good moments make me blind from your current lies chained to the vision of perfect you i can not see the truth begging for scissors to cut this crap you hold me in my head like in a trap like in a fuckin trap all the past lovers all the ex friends all the hopes that tie my hands from the future into the past i'm still chained how long will it last? chained to your lies

gotowanie na ekranie:)

kasia miller said, that when you feel that black hole of depression catches you, try to make something. for example soup. it is your succes when you make soup yourself!
so since i cant wait for school and cant organise myself the time- i cook like crazy

i can't draw now but cooking is also art:P

apples and plums... not jam, nout mousse but awesome!


zucchini, zucchini, zucchini

the crew pic-from left: tomatoes, mushrooms, apricot jam

and everything started thanx to this lady who took me to the countryside


and in 80 years old baking place we baked a cake!!! whoa! it was awesome!

life is good

my camera is back thanx to my sweet girlfriend; made a great cake, with pears and dactiles, finally it is sweet as i like; had not bad rehersal and met "the crew":), university is fucking waititng for me and i STILL HAVE HOLIDAYS! printer is waiting for "strength and courage "zine, on my table lays really good "locals only", and in my head is mazepani #3 ... and my dark room is lightened by national museum
"...and my number is beechwood 4-5789". fucking good!

doda&roman

so today i saw the video of doda. for those who dont know her, she is a polish version of victoria beckham, but continues her music career (singing in kitchy band called virgin) and is hell more controversial- in a very primitive way of course but this is very polish style at the same time... so the song goes like this "don't worry, smile, i sot so bad, there are problems, but you are healthy to solve them..." (for those who speak polish : http://tekstpiosenki.emuzyka.pl/8289/56.html). and the video is partly shot in a surgery room, they bring her on the surgery table, only in sexy underwear, close ups for pierced belly button, and they are trying to save her, check her x-ray photos, they cut her, make her sleep... and then there is this crazy chorus when she feels fine already, is dancing on the beach with lots of happy almost naked and "extremly sexy" young people... and then again she is dying there and then again dancing, and she sings " i got my chance and you will get it too" and at the end they weake her up and tell her that the operation was succesfull...
honestly, it is amazing. i was sitting in front of the tv and i couldnt believe... things like this happen only in poland!!!
other crazy thing from today is roman, minister of education. there was a nice street p[arty against him today with lots of reggae kids jumping to the music. cool
my comment is...:

flower is for daria:)

ahhhhhhhhh

.s......o......hard....to.....learn....when....you........have...........so...............much......fun...to....doooooo......

back to life

and yesterday i went on tamka, whole way by bike. it is a great huge hill in warsaw and i really never made it by bike, wow! i finally am getting out from a small "coming back from holidays" depression. i am even willing to meet some people, and yesterday i came back home at 1 at night! this is soooo rad;) anyway, the exam is close and i need to work for it but if i finally have so much power to do stuff, well, then i have to do them lazy asshole daria draw a page of comic. why would i loose energy and people's time, if she is so talented?? if you know her, make her to show it to you!!!

for a friend!

thank you that you came although i didnt want you to..., that you talked so much, that we moved this bed, that you left some energy in this room, i am able now to finish this strange drawing and even publish this one about polish family
thank you that you are here


because of this rain, darknes, cold and that i have to learn
i feel like it was winter



polish family in 4th reiss



yes. this is hardcore

zagubiony obrazek z lausanny

instead of digital camera pictures...

welcome in my drawn diary from travel. i just finished skanning and repairing;) drawings i made for mast 5 weeks. it is just 1/4 of all stuff, but well, i cant show you all because
a)you would be bored
b) i wouldnt have anything left to put into zines
c) you would hate me :)
anyway, lets start
the one above is from fluff fest. the tshirt's band was a suggestion from szymon...:)

do i know this boy?
the nice rocker from dresden?
or just my brain makes jokes of me...?:)

and this nice girl?
she finished on a mail box in barcelona
someone asked me if i dont like drawing legs... i don't know ;)

with a phrase from monumental...
in barcelona already, where we was kind of addicted to computer
but more to nice people we could communicate
with by it

where was it????
i think in bilbao, just before leaving
there was a good atmosphere so
i draw nice things

stupid
i put it to show you that i am not so perfect as you may xpect ;)

so at night in barcelona we once went to swim in the sea
and it was one of the best things we did there.
the sea was soo scary and the storm was somewhere near...
nest day we watched los perdidos hehehe

new copy book and first monsters
in basque country already

i am very professional artist ;)
and i always have a small notes to draw.
this one if from it. blue pages rule..

...that i draw a comic :)

cyrograph from berlin

icc berlin wawa... after so crazy trips we deserved luxus hahaha
apart from that-good advise!

too much txusan's and dehumanization movemebt' influence :)

for gosia, my best travel mate



*
ok
honestly i thought i would have more to write,
but maybe thats even better
because i wont repeat myself
while writing "dislove",
which will be out as soon as we get used to warsaw
again
and
move our lazy asses
*
I LOVE HOLIDAYS
theres nothing more to add

homesick girl is back home finally

all pictures by alberto, thank you that you made them!!! so finally, after crazy time and crazy trips we are back home... two copubooks wait to be skanned, some things are mierda, some are worth publishing... good to be home. i wanna make a zine, not learn to my stupid exam!!! anyway, i wont write more, cause i am tired and may write bullshit, wait for the drawings kids!

they stole my camera.
all memories from bcn written on a paper, cause they fill up my head...
fuck and sad

barcelona-bilbao:13 hours, new world record!!!

really? a post without drawing?
really, because on this shitty comp in internet cafe in barakaldo you can not download pictures
i wanted to put this picture http://www.laguiadelcomic.com/comics/res01050208.jpg
and i just fund more by him here!!!-->http://jaliblog.blogspot.com/
it is a drawing of the guy who made also this red comic about berta i was writing about before
he is really underground, no pictures otr drawings by him in the internet hehehe
anyway, i am in a search for his stuff
bizkaia is trully beautiful., good to be here, like in lord of the rings country...
mountains mountains mountains
and totally nice and helpfull people. how great, after not so nice barcelona´s people...

ciao

ok so i am a kitchy tourist who while leaving barcelona had to go and say goodbye to sagrada familia ;) i totally regret that i was such a scroudge who didnt want to pay 8 euro for going inside... and now i saw some pics in the internet and fuck, it was really worth it... but i will have a reason to come back at least. other one is a kitchy fountain that sings queen´s songs and has many crazy lights and stuff... we wanted to see that with gosia and daria but we came to late... and then we went to this great squat near beautiful hospital, and met lots of cool people, like one crazy biker and old friend from last holidays, but then again had to leave to get the key to our flat... fuck! the best fun starts when we´re leaving ;) but i am sure we will enjoy bilbao as well, or even more. well, they are witing for us already :)

FREAKS!!!

so we got to freaks finally which is a 3 parts shop with comic, artbooks and movies. awesome. so many stuff and so various and really i could take half of the shop with me.the one above was the best and first i saw, unfortunatelly in spanish, but some parts i understand and its a challenge! ove stories ofcaurse, and as you can giess from the title - with not the best ending...

this one is also in spanish but for kids, so easy to understand. a sotry of a small girl in a castle while storm. and dad doesnt take care of her well....;)

ah, this one is great, especially the firts story, about zinesters falling in love, mmmmm...

this one is less exciting but still is good. it is about a boy who goes for dates with ex girlfriends and can not decide which to choose. it is drawn in funny way, i like it but after half i got borred with all stories , or maybe i should say, one and the same story all the time;)

and this is what i did after reading it all, really i am not satisfied, i was hoping for inspiration and what??? crap!!! and boredom all around...
it is so strange outside, like about to rain but nothing happens and low preassure and melting from boredom....blahhhhhhhhhh....

mudanza en mi corazon en bcn...

welcome in spain, the country of almandrina,

palms, macho´s and good dumsters!!!

we are having a good time here and we are really

stuck to computer, but at least we can share some

elements of our current life. like almandrina image...

whenever wherever you see it- buy it!!!

it is worth every money. mazepani tells you that!!!

ok. so after a lot of mess in my head i gues i can say that i do have a boyfriend. i realised yesterday that i dont have such a huge problem with saying that anymore and i even miss that arschloch... so this was a real break through in my life, took my half a year to understand it....

...but still i am afraid a bit will it be ok, wont i hurt anymone, wont i mess anymore and stuff... so much responsibility... but i will try, i promise...

but as you see i am tought haha

ok, this is cheap but...

ok, this is not my art haha, not even my photo, but in general gaudi rulez!!! we are in bcn and till now one of the most exciting things was seeing his sculptures and houses! awesome! apart from that there is a lot of cool street art here, and pictures of it i will for sure put to this blog as well... when i come back from my travel:)

anyway, we spend whole days walking around and getting excited from the arhitecture. we also swim a lot wherever we can and draw. well, i draw like crazy and gosia had to stop herself cause her finger hurts. my toe hurts too. i hit myself in park guell. shit, how it sounds, i went for an everyday walk in park guell and hurt my toe. hahaha!

and tomorrow more quiet beach and probably demudanza with miquel:) and drawing:)

tak wiem nie moge sie oderwac....

....od komputera, powinnam się pakowac
a podziwiam moje prace i się dziele hehe, no dobra, chwale;)
dobra, czas na ciasto i wybieranie skarpetek:)

wakacje!!!

no więc pojutrze jedziemy z gosią na wakacje, i będziemy sie lenic, i opalać i kompać w morzu i jeść owoce prosto z hiszpańskich drzew, hura hura!!!bedę na pewno duzo rysować ale już dziś znika skaner w mego pokoiku i nic nie wrzucę w sieć, take życie, ale jak wróce to nadrobie zaległości, oby serwer to wytrzymał:) a póki co na strazy warszawy, kiedy to mnie nie będzie, zostawiam wam syrenkę, co by was strzegła przed giertychami:)


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